LAPTOP

hmm, dusty dusty, hv nt been blogging for ages... finally i bought myself a laptop and i'm nw blogging on my bed. been wanting to get a laptop long ago, so cool rite? i'm off to play my new toy!

setting up business

setting up my own online business... ya been seacrhing & finding how to go abt it. did some marketing and found out its nt tat easy and the profit margin is too low... its nt very sustainable..went out wit gary yesterday and we were discussing abt it and he tole me his business plan. sound great but it require me to quit my current job. really lost... think gt to ask God le...

WTF?

Juz came bk from an Exersice with the FPDA nations... its another tough sailing haiz... aniwea bk i one whole piece and eariler than expected. this was the first trip i went to tioman. its a nice peaceful island with nice weather, clean beach and sea... ate alot of ramily burgers, will stop eating for the time being. getting fatter nowadays, haiz dunnoe is it becos of my age or wat... finally i passed my ippt if nt will greatly affect my promotion and ranking... really gt to thank God. before i run i made a prayer and i think God answered..
Last week i got a dent from my car and i dunnoe shld i be angry or sad, cos its my dear who fell and hit it... recently got into some problems my dear. my sixth sense told me history its gg to repeat it self. i remember my previous relationship also had the same problems after two years. m i over reacting or shld i relax? i pray tat God will help me thru it. i need to plan for the worse n future before the pain caught up with me..

HATE ME

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my headThey crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bedDropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alonePlaying movies in my head that make a porno feel like homeThere's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brainAn ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?

And will you never try to reach me?It is I that wanted space

Hate me todayHate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways

Yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me withThe one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch againIn a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at nightWhile I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fightYou never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hateYou made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to takeSo I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mindAnd do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me todayHate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in waysYeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and waveKicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had madeAnd like a baby boy I never was a manUntil I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my handAnd then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to beAnd then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me todayHate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways

Yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good

for youFor youFor youFor you

pattaya trip

its really been a long time since i blogged. everything is smooth and clam. but i felt something is wrong and its coming soon... mayb i just worried for nothing... jst sold my car and getting a new car soon. hopefully can get it when i returned from thailand. deeply sadden when i learnt abt julz grandpa passed away... think she had arl prepared for the worst as they knew the conditions of her grandpa... hope he had accepted christ at the last hour. will blog again soon.

RC warbird

its been a long time since i blog.. haha
hmm, think of quitting my RC car hobby as im got no time for it... gg to sell all of my RC car online hope to clear all.. im back into planes again. how i got into this hobby is partly becos of my job.. as im on a project of remote aircraft survelliance, ha sound abit classified ok tat how i caught or addicted to it... initailly i started off very poor almost give up... aft many practices i can say tat im now a qualify pliot haha~ during the progress crashed a few planes and sold a few too... currently left two planes one in service and the other one still building.... intend to get a jet since my flying confidence level is higher. getting alot of complains from my xxx heheh always said tat i spent more time on plane than her.. hmm, not so quite leh... haiz... still got a ippt to pass.. been training like hell for this stupid test, hopefully can pass b4 june..

india!

finally back to homeland again~ yeah when to india at feb for a month to exercise with the indian navy. this is my first trip to india so i prepare and expect for the worst.... cos i've heard from others tat been there b4 said its boring & nothing to shop. so packed my bag and off i go. the first stop we alongside a port called port blair. its a small island which was very back dated. the ppl there were so poor most of them got no house... the street were messy and the traffics were horrible. the most memorable thing was the food. when to a restaurant for lunch, its was crowded cos most of our guys were there too. so my friend and i decided to order first in case we had to wait for a long time. haha who noes the one who ordered last came first... and so we ended up waited one & a half hour plus three out of five of the food we ordered came. some were unavalible. so the next day we continue our jounery to the second port which is vizag. so we hope tat this port is better.. its seems almost the same but its a bigger version. when onboard their submarine, destoryer ship and some of the attractions. food is much better but waiting time is still the same haha... aft the 3 days of R&R we went out exercise with the INS for 4 days then we stay for another 3 days to interact with them for some diplomat reasons. .. miss my dearly so much and manage to call her only when i stop by the pay phone cos i dun have roaming... the final destination was to stop at thailand for refueling and charge bk to singapore. but the trip to thailand was cancel due to the earth quake and tsunami alert. maybe its part of God's plan. for this we came bk three days earlier & YEAH to see my darling again!